I’ve had 3 red bulls today and I can’t sleep, these thoughts keep coming into my head. Not the same thoughts but they generally pertain to metaphysics, epistemology and ethics through a Kantian framework. I’ve been feeling anxiety about the future, like how I used to feel at college, I feel that what I want to do in the future is do a MA or masters-level degree in philosophy, or maybe a degree that links philosophy and social science (such as philosophy & psychoanalysis, philosophy & social theory), I have all these questions in my mind (you might say, I have a curiousity at heart) about the nature of the universe, these concerns are not on the base level, because I feel that there is already an answer to fundamental questions, the enlightenment gave us so many great thinkers, contributing to what discourses we have today. I’m not just talking about philosophy, but, as expressed in my last post, there are so many wide applications, philosophers (and mathematicians) can plug the hole that many people have, from medicine to engineering. I think that the best and most relevant applications can be seen through the former of those two. I really want to get into a graduate program in philosophy and to do that, it all depends on how I do now! I need a 2:1 minimum or else I’m screwed for life. Universities i’ve thought of applying to are Oxford, Warrick, UCL, or Kings. There are so many curiosities I have.
I think that over the summer I will write some essays, have some thoughts about a Kantian framework and how it can be applied to our core concerns. I think that concerns about the meaning of life is a culturally imposed question, the ‘meaning’ of life presupposes the meaning of meaning. We make up our own meaning and people who ask such questions are not confident with their life, the question itself is too loaded to ask.